So my room has been a mess for the past two weeks. The boyfriend forgives. I list my reasons over and over again. He sighs. I look at the room. It kinda reflects how I feel in my head. Its been a jumble recently. And sleep has been something of an accidental event.
Yesterday I went hiking with my Literature in the Environment class, field trip. It was sweeeet to say the very least. Somehow I know I've been losing ground. What's most important? It put me back to where I act like a child, running on the path and talking to plants. I had a chat with the little boy, son of a student in the class, and I forgot how smart and mature they can be... I almost felt that kid knew more than me about things, but he hardly said anything.
Maybe because in his eyes you can see that he's living with the right now, he's got it down. He's rubbing two rocks together to see which one is more strong. Yet he didn't have to explain to me, I could just assume.
Sometimes the simplest ways to learn are right in front of us, why don't we pick it up and test the rocks? Growing older I find myself losing the kind of curiosity that cannot be explained. Why didn't I care about two different rocks like he did?
And you're wondering how this goes into design. I think that design somehow starts at the core. If I hit the right string inside, it'll resonate. I know my work isn't the most exciting yet and in type class I'm trying to keep it as classic, but I think it's nice to learn how to iterate the classic before I go out. At the same time, do I have a fear of rubbing two rocks together? I don't think so. I've kinda always plan things outs, whether I would like it or not.
Somehow, I know that if I had gone to art school right away and graduated this semester like all my peers (facebook says... oh last semester!! etc etc) I would not be where I am right now as a person. I had a lot of things messed up as I grew up and I hid a lot of things. So going to Cal kind of really hit me down as far as I can go... and now it's going to have to be uphill.
The rain's cleared up. I'm going to clean up the rest of this room and go for a walk.
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ps. if you haven't tried American Analog Set i would give it a try. esp born on the cusp.
pss. amazing how work just starts coming to me... friends want me to make a logo for their jewelry shop...boyfriend wants me to make one for the ethics commission and something else for his brother... holllyyy
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